Whatever you say or do, I’ll be sure to reimburse you

from your colorful words

to your instilled doubt

to the countless nights of hearing about all the things I never do right

I’ll pay you back for all the time spent ridiculing me by giving you more of my time

because all I see is the pedestal you hover on and the missing steps from a path you took from me

I’ll never reach you and even if that’s not okay..

it’s okay…..